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I’m not complaining. [A beat, smile half-crooked when he adds: ] Now. I was then, to be clear.
[Often; sometimes mercilessly. Jim’s reluctant to let go now, too. ] But not now. You can burst in any time. The doors always open.
[And then, quieter: ] Preferably you do it without pissing off Billy, too. He’s currently trying to give me a migraine.
[Often; sometimes mercilessly. Jim’s reluctant to let go now, too. ] But not now. You can burst in any time. The doors always open.
[And then, quieter: ] Preferably you do it without pissing off Billy, too. He’s currently trying to give me a migraine.
oh, I've seen dead people my whole life. I guess I never mentioned that. I get possessed like, super easily, too. it was sorta my job, growing up. and you know, music means a lot to people, so a lot of times after channeling I'd have a song just stuck in my head and I'd have to go look it up before it drove me nuts.
[ Oh. His expression slides toward indignation. ]
Sorry.
[ And then, actually, still not completely aware of what he'd done as he exited that particular conversation, sounding a little bemused that he's having this one - ]
He told me to eat shit and go fuck myself. [ Teenagers do that, no? Despite his fury in the moment, with hindsight the whole thing had been petty enough. ] What did he come tattling to you for?
Sorry.
[ And then, actually, still not completely aware of what he'd done as he exited that particular conversation, sounding a little bemused that he's having this one - ]
He told me to eat shit and go fuck myself. [ Teenagers do that, no? Despite his fury in the moment, with hindsight the whole thing had been petty enough. ] What did he come tattling to you for?
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[ A huff of a laugh. A lol, if you will. ]
With my deepest sympathies, Jim, if it's my existence he finds upsetting, look forward to more migraines.
[ But no. The kid caught him on the back of a extremely bad mood, with their previous conversation having taken place during a month where Stephen wasn't exactly himself. He should've been an adult about it, and he wasn't. So. ]
I'll do my best not to actively earn you any.
With my deepest sympathies, Jim, if it's my existence he finds upsetting, look forward to more migraines.
[ But no. The kid caught him on the back of a extremely bad mood, with their previous conversation having taken place during a month where Stephen wasn't exactly himself. He should've been an adult about it, and he wasn't. So. ]
I'll do my best not to actively earn you any.
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[ This is above Billy's paygrade, and well above his emotional intelligence. Not when Billy's a mess like this, jaded and jealous and an insane part of him digs crescents into the heels of his hands, his nails sharp when he thinks, we were going to try for one. That or the fucking cruise.
Yeah, no. He needs a 2 AM ride and a pack of Marlboros. Maybe a forty. ]
Take what's fair up with Zlatka. And go talk to Munson about it, you can swap baby stories and get him level, or fuck him up more.
[ Bye! ]
Yeah, no. He needs a 2 AM ride and a pack of Marlboros. Maybe a forty. ]
Take what's fair up with Zlatka. And go talk to Munson about it, you can swap baby stories and get him level, or fuck him up more.
[ Bye! ]
Sorry. I'll be back... Vlad had my name. ( he should probably say more, explain something but Jem and Billy are coming. he thinks. he's pretty sure, thoughts are hard to hold on to.
he just didn't want Jim to worry. the words are soft, like he's struggling to catch his breath. the thing about the on-going little beef he's had with the tailor's son is that it made the kill cruel, the death slow and painful. )
I--- ( the thing about dying is that it's hard to control your own thoughts, to put on a show. ) I don't want to go her again... Sorry. Don't worry.
he just didn't want Jim to worry. the words are soft, like he's struggling to catch his breath. the thing about the on-going little beef he's had with the tailor's son is that it made the kill cruel, the death slow and painful. )
I--- ( the thing about dying is that it's hard to control your own thoughts, to put on a show. ) I don't want to go her again... Sorry. Don't worry.
maybe you should start building rooms at the cabin with doors on the outside, you know?
That's fucking bullshit. It's never that simple. No one just fucking stays because you need them. ( Eddie shoves at him again, rougher this time but he feels so kitten-weak after the week he's had -- kept in the bed, lost between madness and pain and pleasure. he feels weighed down by it still, like he's moving with a speed nerf or like he's got a -15 modifier and fucked no matter what he rolls.
he doesn't want to tell Jim anything else, doesn't want to and all the same he needs the man to stay and listen. the hands threatening to shove again grip the front of his shirt and Eddie lets out a frustrated laugh, a huff -- a sob.
he hasn't admitted this to Jem or Billy yet, wasn't ever going to say this out loud but thinks maybe he should. ) I goaded them to do this-- the burn, the marks. I knew it would fuck them both up but that was the whole point. To fuck you all up.
That part's me. I know how to do that, what to say. That part was all me.
he doesn't want to tell Jim anything else, doesn't want to and all the same he needs the man to stay and listen. the hands threatening to shove again grip the front of his shirt and Eddie lets out a frustrated laugh, a huff -- a sob.
he hasn't admitted this to Jem or Billy yet, wasn't ever going to say this out loud but thinks maybe he should. ) I goaded them to do this-- the burn, the marks. I knew it would fuck them both up but that was the whole point. To fuck you all up.
That part's me. I know how to do that, what to say. That part was all me.
well, no, not to just anyone. my family are spiritualists and mediumship is a big part of that. I just happen to be really good at it.
I'm not from done weird alternate earth with wizards and shit. everything I've heard from Eddie and Billy sounds pretty much like the 80s I've heard of and seen in movies.
I'm not from done weird alternate earth with wizards and shit. everything I've heard from Eddie and Billy sounds pretty much like the 80s I've heard of and seen in movies.
[ It's been - a long fucking month, getting longer every day. He wakes up alone, slick black on his fingertips and smeared over his pillow, and in the absence of Quentin in his otherwise empty bed Stephen misses safety and ease and home so terribly for a moment that his breath hitches, gets stuck in his lungs.
Once he's worked himself over it, he reaches out to do something about it. To find home where he knows he'll be, basking in dappled sun through a window, maybe long awake or perhaps just waking, perhaps still asleep, to be woken by the quiet insistence of Stephen's own gentle thought. ]
Jim.
Once he's worked himself over it, he reaches out to do something about it. To find home where he knows he'll be, basking in dappled sun through a window, maybe long awake or perhaps just waking, perhaps still asleep, to be woken by the quiet insistence of Stephen's own gentle thought. ]
Jim.
( going directly to the source; ) so no daddy joking in public?
it would help me feel better though :(
it would help me feel better though :(
do you not listen when i tell you shit? ( in the middle about ranting about random shit, he dabbles in his on-going relationship and otherwise drama )
i haven’t felt right since i’ve gotten back from the fucking dead, jem’s mad but it’s warranted, we’re living in horrorville, billy’s upset, danny and murphy pulled some bullshit, and i just want a break??? i DONT KNOW HOW TO FIX ANYTHING RIGHT NOW
i need like a week where i don’t think or worry or feel like im going to pull all my hair out
i’d like to just feel okay or be left alone? i never thought i’d miss the days when no one wanted to be around me… SO NOT MUCH IS WRONG
i haven’t felt right since i’ve gotten back from the fucking dead, jem’s mad but it’s warranted, we’re living in horrorville, billy’s upset, danny and murphy pulled some bullshit, and i just want a break??? i DONT KNOW HOW TO FIX ANYTHING RIGHT NOW
i need like a week where i don’t think or worry or feel like im going to pull all my hair out
i’d like to just feel okay or be left alone? i never thought i’d miss the days when no one wanted to be around me… SO NOT MUCH IS WRONG
[In some ways, his time here has been good for him. He wakes early now, more often than he doesn't. His routine begins before dawn, with bread and something hot. Sometimes he dresses and goes out on the water, and sometimes he sits in the quiet - the silence - of the forest, and tries very hard not to miss his daughter.
Sometimes it's too quiet. Even when he has company, sometimes the stillness is too much.
He's glad for Stephen's voice; almost relieved to have the stillness of his morning broken. ] Stephen?
Sometimes it's too quiet. Even when he has company, sometimes the stillness is too much.
He's glad for Stephen's voice; almost relieved to have the stillness of his morning broken. ] Stephen?
Considering this is the first you’ve mentioned this shit specifically, it’d be hard to listen.
Anyway, you know you can come here any time. For anything. But I’m not a mind reader, baby. I can only read so much between the lines of what you’re giving me.
Anyway, you know you can come here any time. For anything. But I’m not a mind reader, baby. I can only read so much between the lines of what you’re giving me.
jesus, how insane does it sound when i just say it?
( Jim does have a good point though. he frowns at the page in his campaign journal that he’s been using more to draw out a random beholder. )
i know. i just— ( feel really fucking needy, fucking insane. maybe Jim’s really right about just coming out and saying it, just spitting out what he needs. it feels like sometimes it’s so easy and he can demand Jim give him the attention he needs, other times it feels so fucking vulnerable even though he knows he’ll find no judgement for it. he’s known that before they fell into the void together, has known that for a while. maybe that’s the problem elsewhere too.
he sighs, ) can i stay over for a few days? just the two of us?
i’ll even come out on the boat and behave
( Jim does have a good point though. he frowns at the page in his campaign journal that he’s been using more to draw out a random beholder. )
i know. i just— ( feel really fucking needy, fucking insane. maybe Jim’s really right about just coming out and saying it, just spitting out what he needs. it feels like sometimes it’s so easy and he can demand Jim give him the attention he needs, other times it feels so fucking vulnerable even though he knows he’ll find no judgement for it. he’s known that before they fell into the void together, has known that for a while. maybe that’s the problem elsewhere too.
he sighs, ) can i stay over for a few days? just the two of us?
i’ll even come out on the boat and behave
If you'll have me.
[ He says, with the full complete knowledge that he absolutely will. It's nice to play at normal for a moment, as though things aren't titled entirely off kilter. Speaking of, before he truly does gear up to invite himself over, he should probably confess - ]
I'm a little sticky today.
[ He says, with the full complete knowledge that he absolutely will. It's nice to play at normal for a moment, as though things aren't titled entirely off kilter. Speaking of, before he truly does gear up to invite himself over, he should probably confess - ]
I'm a little sticky today.
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