Yeah, I still feel it. It felt like she was mine - mine her whole life. [His instead of ending up with him by unfortunate circumstance. He loves that kid with all he’s got, is the thing. He misses her something fierce; the longing is never ending, as is the worry, the wondering.
He sighs, though. ] I still feel all of them, you know. They were real until they weren’t, and I’ve been missing her this whole time. This just - makes the ache newer.
[Then, as kindly as he can be: ] I don’t know that it’s fair that Eddie has to feel it too.
[ This is above Billy's paygrade, and well above his emotional intelligence. Not when Billy's a mess like this, jaded and jealous and an insane part of him digs crescents into the heels of his hands, his nails sharp when he thinks, we were going to try for one. That or the fucking cruise.
Yeah, no. He needs a 2 AM ride and a pack of Marlboros. Maybe a forty. ]
Take what's fair up with Zlatka. And go talk to Munson about it, you can swap baby stories and get him level, or fuck him up more.
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He sighs, though. ] I still feel all of them, you know. They were real until they weren’t, and I’ve been missing her this whole time. This just - makes the ache newer.
[Then, as kindly as he can be: ] I don’t know that it’s fair that Eddie has to feel it too.
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Yeah, no. He needs a 2 AM ride and a pack of Marlboros. Maybe a forty. ]
Take what's fair up with Zlatka. And go talk to Munson about it, you can swap baby stories and get him level, or fuck him up more.
[ Bye! ]